One Day

Sometimes I lay
Under the moon
And thank G-d I'm breathing
Then I pray
Don't take me soon
Cause I'm here for a reason
Sometimes in my tears I drown
But I never let it get me down
So when negativity surrounds
I know some day it'll all turn around
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A pause. A moment. Still waiting for life to begin. I feel as if I have been waiting for twenty-five years for life to start, I am closer, I see where I want to go and it is almost attainable, but there is still the waiting. And with it an amazing fear that all of the pursuits of wants and waiting gathered to a place where I will be disappointed with the result, where it will not be enough, and then what?
I feel amazingly alone and within that find myself looking for what can fill the hole. I have been looking up the Jewish community here. I miss hearing Hebrew. I miss being more thankful for the good days and feeling as if there was an open line of communication on the bad.