A Note

The words I get are not her own, they are a mixture of eavesdropping, conversations with my mother and her personal feelings and so I find myself holding back frustrated sentences I wish to tell her or anyone in this house. I am feeling played and I don't like it. There is a part of me that wanted to say that if she believed in the words she wrote, she shouldn't have lived in the same house as I for most of my life. When people want the best for you, they really want the best for themselves. Yes, they want you to be happy, but they also want you to pick someone who doesn't irritate them, that talks about things they enjoy, does things the way they do them. My family wants to create a comforting atmosphere, but after that note, I'm feeling manipulated(?) and it's pissing me off.