Hello Pillow, Can I Have A Z?

I drag myself out of bed in the morning, one foot in front of the other. I'm told I look tired, I'm asked if I'm ok. I toss and turn at night. I take a shower. Show my little sister how to make Malt 'O Meal. I grade her classwork from the previous day so that she can begin the next lesson once we have reviewed. Afterwards, she does a chore then is free to watch a movie or play my PS2 while I pack boxes. When the day is done there is no other option, but to sleep, wake up and do it all over again.
My mom is in OKC this week. I was there a couple of days, but the interactions were frustrating me. I do miss the little one though. I met with the moving company yesterday, I'm afraid I did not pack my boxes well enough for such a lengthy travel.
I'm overwhelmed.
Without my mother knowing anything she said that we aren't really dating, that hurt, but probably more so because it's true. I don't understand a relationship where you don't see each other and you don't talk. You wondered how my parents relationship survived while they were in separate states, they communicated. Which brings me to four paths: you want to break-up with me but don't want to hurt my feelings, you're seeing someone else, you did something stupid and are avoiding telling me, your combination of meds isn't helping and you should see your doctor.
The red head at Starbucks, I keep feeling there is more to that story...probably because there is always more to your stories than what you initially tell me. First you had forgotten to tell me that she was flirting with you so you left SB, then we meet up on another day and she supposedly takes a photo of us/you on her phone and you mention it is the same girl. I've done a lot of random things, but they made more sense than that. Considering your inability to say no, I'm starting to wonder if you gave her your phone number and she wanted an assigned photo once she saw you. If it had been an actual camera it would not be so out of place, but due to the fact she used her phone, she opened a can of worms.
I wonder why every major change in my life is at the same time you are utterly depressed? When neither one can help the other.