I am so tired. I shut down at eight-thirty last night, not that I slept, I just couldn't take in any more input. Dust is starting to settle on my desk, I see it from where I sit each morning and each night and yet I don't have the will to do something about it. I feel like I'm starving all the time, partially due to my lack of actual nourishment and also, a familiar foe, comfort food. There is a change this time; however, I recognize that I am stressing and therefor my brain seeks the kitchen as there is no one to keep me occupied. So instead, I attempt staying busy and when that doesn't work, sit in my room, my blood sugar drops, my stomach feels as though it is eating itself and I tell myself it's all in my head.
Where is my person that will drive for hours bar hopping to find me when I've "shut the world out"? Where is my "are you ok" text? I'm lonely, I feel like crap and my life sucks. That's how I feel right now.
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