Too Tired To Be Pleasant

I cannot fill this void I feel
I want to hide away
I hear the lost whisper of your voice
Don't tell me silence is your choice
~

I don't know how to stay positive if this is how things are going to continue going. The project at work...again, I didn't feel as confident as the other temp and the sections I did whiz through occurred after our supervisor left, fabulous. I always seem to struggle when there is an audience. They said they no longer needed me, they are keeping the other temp. I am returning to my original department, thank goodness I have some work. I also found out that the VP could not decide between me and another for the full-time position and went with the other as they have PM experience. However, he really wants to hire me, he is not sure in what capacity or if they have the budget though so they asked that I be patient and they will try and make me an offer in a couple of weeks. I don't know how to feel about that. I want to be thankful, but I'm just sad that I didn't get an offer. Yay me for having a pity party. I think I'm overly tired. Have tried to have lunch with my lunch buddy the last two days and keep zoning out while he is talking. I had a nice lunch Friday with three women from the office, we all walked to the store together and ate in the "cafeteria." I randomly thought of that because of the topic of lunch.

My sister will be up here next month. She had two showings and someone made an offer on her house, lucky! I will get to finally see my nephew who is....six months? He is already doing so much on his own. They grow up too fast.