What if?

I'm starting to worry that I should call my doctor, yet I don't want to know. I got at least two STDs over the course of your excursions. I waited a long time before I went to the doctor because I didn't know what was wrong and was embarrassed. Untreated STDs can lead to infertility and if I find out I can't have kids, my heart will be broken worse than ever. I'm scared that the thing I have wanted more than anything, I might not be able to have. Another reason to be monogamous.