I Feel Ill

She makes a public comment asking who the girl in your room is, then sends me a private message asking me if we are still together. I feel ill. I know I haven't been committed, yet you told me recently you felt I was too close. Now I wonder if you haven't been wanting to see me because you have been seeing someone else. Is this happening again? Please don't tell me it is. I'm awake and crying and don't want to be. You invited me on a date earlier in the week and when I asked you about it this afternoon you said you weren't sure and I haven't heard from you all night and now these conversations from your roomate about another female...you always answer your phone, you didn't respond. I want to throw-up.